So ever since the hubs and I have been trying to have a baby it is constantly on my mind. In the beginning, we were trying but not stressing about it. That is easier said than done for a woman who wants a baby. The last 2 months have been a little more difficult. It seems that everyone is getting pregnant. And not that I just happen to see pregnant woman everywhere (I do all the time), but people I actually know are pregnant; my sister-in-law, my cousin's wife, my coworker, my other coworkers wife, and a friend from back home. I'm not even going to mention all the people on facebook who are posting their due dates. And while I couldn't be happier for those people, I will admit that I am slightly jealous and wish it was me. Not that I don't want them to be preggers, I just want to know when I will be. Because if it is not going to be a while then I can let my mind take a break until it is my turn.
I try every time someone I know gets pregnant to stay positive about me having a baby some day, but there always seems to be that little thought in my mind saying, "what if I can't have children?". I know I shouldn't even worry about it at this point, but after seeing some women get pregnant without even trying it's hard not to get a little sad that my husband and I are trying and haven't gotten pregnant yet.
This week was just one of those down weeks. But I am just going to try and stay positive and hopefully my turn will be sooner rather than later. :)
